I put my back to the wall and slumped to the ground. I stared at my wedding ring. I had worn it only a week, and all I could hear were her words, “We need to take a break” echo in my mind.
She tried to console me as best as she could, but all I could do was sit there and let the tears fall from my eyes. I remember saying “I have nothing”. My entire world had ended in what felt like a blink of an eye, and there was nothing I could do about it.
This was the climax of a two-month shitstorm I had been weathering through. I was wrestling with intense wedding planning, my mom’s temporary hospitalization, and my relationship turning into the hottest mess you’ve ever seen. My life had gone to hell, and this break-up a week after my wedding might as well been the little blood-red bow meant to wrap it all together. Little did I know, my world ending was exactly what I needed.
Looking back, I feel a bit like a drowning child who stood up and realized he was in the shallow end of the pool. My life that had seemed over, now blossoms. Being single and with my folks, I find myself with a lot more freedom.
I have a fraction of the adult responsibilities that I had living on my own, and I am no longer in a codependent relationship taking caring of my ex’s constant anxiety and depression. I can come and leave the house whenever I wish. I have no fears that my missing presence will cause a mental breakdown for those I live with.
Likewise, my social life has exploded. Being single and happy, I like to go out more. I want to meet new people, and to flirt with beautiful women. Even my dead-end part-time job has been wonderful, in that it has given me time to play and explore while I find something better.
The reason I share all this is because I learned something valuable. Sometimes life seems shitty, and I’m not talking about when you wake up on the wrong side of the bed kind of shitty. Sometimes, your life feels so completely and utterly ruined that you’re not even sure why you get up anymore. When that happens, try to remember, life doesn’t end when everything is destroyed. That’s just the beginning and something new and exciting is waiting right around the corner.